~Azareph

Ok so I've been doing a lot of pen sketches thanks to *Tigermond and I'm feeling more confident with my drawing finally. I was a little hesitant to write this in a journal because I didn't want to get ahead of myself but I think I should be alright. Now that I'm enjoying it more I'm finally going to get those kiribans in that I've owed for months.

After I get all my owed art out of the way I'd like to try out some small commissions to see how that works. I promise they'll be cheap and I'll get them done fast. I'll be able to draw any subject (not just the type of stuff in my gallery) but appropriate things please. Just so you know I really enjoy doing inking now so anything you get will have nice lines like [link] (char (c) =Xenonith inking by me).

plushie-kiy sketching

Well I'm not expecting much but lets try it out. Thanks to all my friends who kept me from quitting.

Ok I just found the coolest video ever. It's hard to explain right now so I'll just let you watch it. [link]

I have returned recently from my DA break and have been keeping up with people's deviations. I do get an awful lot though so I have to skip some though. Yeah I know I don't have any new art for you. I haven't drawn anything in months but I think I might do some small stuff soon. I'm not sure if I'll put it up though because then I might get caught up in DA again. I'm gonna try to keep it like the good old days before I had an account and I'd come on here to check up on my 3-5 favorite artists and draw for fun. When I started putting stuff up I felt like I HAD to to it so that I wouldn't disappoint people. Also I promise I will get all the art out I owe but I can't do it right now; again it feels like I'm disappointing people but for now I just need to rediscover myself. In any case since I need proddings to draw just note or message me to set up an oC or niko's pchat session if you want.

It might seem like in order to improve you need to push yourself while in reality it's easy to fall into the trap of forcing yourself too hard which ends up backfiring. I've learned that and I hope I can help prevent other people by going through the same thing. You can get better just from taking a break and walking away for a while.

This is going to be very difficult for me but one of my friends has been able to show me that I need a break from DA. I put too much time into being here and it's interfereing with my life and my art. When you find yourself not drawing anymore so you can answer messages it's gone too far. On a side note this has made me depressed all the time and I think this is really the best course of action for me.
So far the set date is when school ends the first week of May but it might go longer if I don't see enough improvement. Also being this addicted I might slip up so I turned off my hidden status so you all can see if I've been naughty or nice.
I'm going to miss everyone I talk to here on DA very much and I couldn't live without you all. I usualy like to keep a small amount of people on my msn but please keep me company, I would really appreciate it.

azareph_@hotmail.com (yes there's a random underscore)

I really hope I do get my life in order and hopefully improve in my art without all of DA's distractions. It would be a shame to do this for nothing.

Bye ;-;

It doesn't seem like there's going to be any new pictures coming out soon. My activity might be low but I don't really know yet. I think I'll go play a game or something